I thought meditation must be easy, boring even.
You just sit quietly, without thought. This notion couldn’t have been farther from the truth. 44 days into my new practice, I understand frustration of Elizabeth Gilbert beginning her practice in India described in her book “Eat, Pray, Love”.
I began my meditation practice August 29th. I have yet to turn off the constant dialogue in my head while doing it. I know the theory is to not worry about this dialogue and to stick with the practice but…..
As I wait to experience any of the benefits of meditation, I am discovering new things about myself.
Throughout each day I notice my mind is also always going – thinking, thinking, thinking. Thinking about my to do lists, upcoming appointments, work projects, phone calls, past events, the future in countless ways, messes around me, making money
and on and on and on.
I am still struggling with the act of meditating – quieting my mind and even just sitting for 5 minutes in the uncomfortable lotus position.
I discovered that meditation is a form of mindfulness. Now I understand meaning of the word – mindful. It is an interesting word because you think it would mean fill the mind fully. But isn’t it the opposite?
To be aware, to be present, to live in the moment, without judging, or analyzing.
So as I include mindfulness more in my life, I will notice the impact on my meditation practice.
And stay committed to this new habit of meditation.
